The 13-th month confession

The moment December 1st strikes the calendar, we all have one thing in mind: Christmas bonus! 

It's the one thing that all working people in the world look forward to receiving. I myself was excited about it. I started making lists - the makeup and the material girl wishlist. Yes, I got two. Don't ask. I love writing down the things that I want, even if it means it'll forever be on the wishlist. 

Just like any other girl, I'm a sucker for makeup. Here are a few that made it on my list: 

• mineral powder (Bobbi Brown) 
• foundation brush (Marrionaud) 
• blush on (either from Nars or Tupperware) 
• The Balm concealer
• MAC prep + prime (for the eyes) 
• red lippie from MAC; Indian red from PAC 

I know for a fact that I won't be able to buy all the makeup stuff  I listed but it doesn't matter to me. What's important is I know what I want and having it all written down would motivate me to work (so I could buy 'em). 

And came the day I've been waiting for... 

I rushed to the MAC store at Rustan's and asked for the lady there to help me find the red lipstick that's best for me. She picked Russian Red and tried it on me and voila, it instantly gave a whole new fresh look. You know to be real honest, I seldom wear red lipstick because I'm acidic and it'll just wear off easily. That's why I dreamed of this because MAC's known for it's long wearing power. The lipstick cost me P1,000. It may not be practical to spend such amount on a lipstick alone but I was dying to have it and I was really happy (like jumping for joy) when I finally bought it.

I painted my lips red right before heading to the World Bazaar with my husband Bien and daughter Saab. 

From lipstick, I purchased a personalized bracelet at The Beadshop. I've always wanted to have one but I find it too expensive so when I finally got the chance to own one custom made accessory, I hesitated no more.  

It says there, "my heart belongs to Bien." I guess I'm just too in love with this man that I want to wear something that pronounces my love for him everyday. Okay, enough of the cheesy-ness! 

To be really frank, the things I've spent with my money now is a million times different with how I used to spend my money in the past. Now, I think before I buy. I take practicality in consideration. When we went to  the World Bazaar a few days back, I was thinking of buying some stuff for myself -and with stuff I meant clothes, accessories, a bag, and a new pair of shoes. I used to go to bazaars with my mom before and we're able to bring home a lot from there. But this year is just different for me. Believe me I tried to convince myself that there were things that I wanted in there but hesitated to buy. HESITANT. That's the magic word that best describes how I feel about spending. My husband would always remind me that I can buy what I want. He would say, "You worked hard for it so spend it." Bien is very reassuring when he says things like that and to be told that you can spend your money all you want is something that every material girl would love to hear. But I choose to be different. I choose to face the reality that sacrifices made in the family is not just a weight that has to be put on one person. It has to be from the both of you.   

I guess from the 90-degree angle where I used to be, I am now standing at a 360-degree of being a responsible mother and wife. It's never easy but I'm getting there. I am close to grasping the whole idea of a starting family. Now, before myself, I think of Bien and Saab - their physical needs and how in my own little way can I provide those. My definition of spending and shopping is not about me anymore - it's about them and it's my happiness really to give them a piece of what I've worked hard for. 

Christmas is fast approaching. Let us all be reminded that more than the material gifts, Christmas is a celebration of life, and for me, it's simply a celebration of being happily married to Bien and being a good mother to Saab. Of course, you guys can still spend your money the way you want it but do spend it wisely  so you won't end up empty handed by next year. It makes sense right? Oh God! I think it's the best thing I've said in the span of my existence. Haha! Until then! Merry Christmas everyone!